Be strong and courageous

I've been struggling ( I think struggling is my adjective of the year) with reading my Bible for weeks now...probably months. Another blessing that came out of team meeting on Monday, which I guess I am thankful to God for is that I was introduced to this website called 'journal junkies'. I've been praying for a way in which I can explore the Word of God in a personal and reflective way. Study Bibles are great and I have one that I used regularly, but sometimes reading someone elese's reflection of what the Scripture means to them, makes you feel like an observer rather than being actively involved in the reading and understanding of it...if that makes sense.

So, I'm trying out this format from 'journal junkies' to see if it works. But it will take discipline to keep it up.

Today I read Joshua 1. I must admit, I have dipped into this book very often. The verse that got my attention was verse 9 where God tells Joshua as he's about to go and conquer the land that God has given them...actually I have to start from verse 8:

8 Study this Book of the Law continually. Meditate on it day and night so you may be sure to obey all that is written in it. Only then will you succeed.
9 I command you - be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.

I don't do this. I don't study the Bible continually. I don't meditate on it day and night. I know it's not like a magic formula that if you read the Bible everyday then you will always be successful. But I do remember that the times when I actually took time to spend time in God's word, I did notice that I wasn't as discouraged as I am now. I had hope and a foundation on which to plant my feet.

The promise of God being with me wherever I go is something to hold on to at least. I feel so lost right now. Tomorrow, is a year since I was awarded my PhD. And what do I have to show for it?!

I can't believe I'm starting the new year the way this year began...unemployed! Actually, I would love God to speak to me as clearly as He spoke to Joshua, at least I'd know we're still somehow connected!