Every Monday, unless, there's some exception we have team meeting. It starts out with a time of worship, then we go through updates of the various projects, after which we do a discussion from the Bible.
At the moment, we're going through the Psalms of Ascents (Psalm 120 - 134). I've always found the discussions about the various Psalm encouraging. But this morning, I think because Chris and I had a bit of a rough weekend, I just found myself feeling completely overwhelmed and challenged by it.
The Psalm we discussed today was Psalm 125 which reads:
1 Those who trust in the LORD
Are like Mount Zion,
Which cannot be moved, but abides forever.
2 As the mountains surround Jerusalem,
So the LORD surrounds His people
From this time forth and forever.
3 For the scepter of wickedness shall not rest
On the land allotted to the righteous,
Lest the righteous reach out their hands to iniquity.
4 Do good, O LORD, to those who are good,
And to those who are upright in their hearts.
5 As for such as turn aside to their crooked ways,
The LORD shall lead them away
With the workers of iniquity.
Peace be upon Israel!
In the discussion it the question was posed: Do we feel secure God? Particularly when in the case of this same the Israelites were in a place that they didn't want to be. Do I trust God enough to take me through things when they're not going as they expected. And to be honest, it's been my greatest struggle since I finished my PhD. I wasn't expecting to be out of a job this long, and I am in an expected place, which has shook my trust and security in God. A lot of things have slipped because of me struggling (such as prayer and spending quality time with God looking at His word). Ironically, it is these activities that have made me feel rooted and anchored when I felt completely churned by the winds of life.
I don't know if I feel secure in God right now. It may sound selfish or a backward reasoning, but if I got a job then I'd know that He is actually seeing what I'm going through. Yet, if someone told me this was their situation, I would say 'Of course God is looking after you! He said He'd never leave you nor forsake you!' Then why can't receive that and put that way of thinking into practise?
Why isn't God doing anything about my situation? Why does He seem so silent? How long am I supposed to be in this wilderness?
I do want to be have the faith that Psalmist talks about. I want to have such security in God that nothing will shake me. But right now, I am finding it very difficult....
Are like Mount Zion,
Which cannot be moved, but abides forever.
2 As the mountains surround Jerusalem,
So the LORD surrounds His people
From this time forth and forever.
3 For the scepter of wickedness shall not rest
On the land allotted to the righteous,
Lest the righteous reach out their hands to iniquity.
4 Do good, O LORD, to those who are good,
And to those who are upright in their hearts.
5 As for such as turn aside to their crooked ways,
The LORD shall lead them away
With the workers of iniquity.
Peace be upon Israel!
In the discussion it the question was posed: Do we feel secure God? Particularly when in the case of this same the Israelites were in a place that they didn't want to be. Do I trust God enough to take me through things when they're not going as they expected. And to be honest, it's been my greatest struggle since I finished my PhD. I wasn't expecting to be out of a job this long, and I am in an expected place, which has shook my trust and security in God. A lot of things have slipped because of me struggling (such as prayer and spending quality time with God looking at His word). Ironically, it is these activities that have made me feel rooted and anchored when I felt completely churned by the winds of life.
I don't know if I feel secure in God right now. It may sound selfish or a backward reasoning, but if I got a job then I'd know that He is actually seeing what I'm going through. Yet, if someone told me this was their situation, I would say 'Of course God is looking after you! He said He'd never leave you nor forsake you!' Then why can't receive that and put that way of thinking into practise?
Why isn't God doing anything about my situation? Why does He seem so silent? How long am I supposed to be in this wilderness?
I do want to be have the faith that Psalmist talks about. I want to have such security in God that nothing will shake me. But right now, I am finding it very difficult....
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