We didn’t get the house that we wanted for Christmas. In fact, we found one that we thought was perfect and were planning to pay down a deposit on it this month. It was a 2 minute walk from my church. It would be opposite my future sister-in-law. We’d have friends within a 3 mile radius. And we knew the lady that used to live in it, she’s a Christian doing missionary work overseas. It seemed too good to be true. And it was because a Polish couple moved into 3 days before Christmas. I was heartbroken. I just sat down and sobbed in church when I found out. God guide us by saying yes, no and wait. This was very vocal ‘no’ from God, as it felt the door was slammed shut on that option. So what? Where do we go from here? We continue along the same route of trusting God to lead us to the place He wants us to be.
There are times when things go wrong, and life isn’t working out the way that I expected (as they are now), that I want to be angry with God. I must admit it, these past few months have shook the foundations of my faith. But I have to remember that these difficult times are not going unnoticed by God. Yes, He is allowing these things to happen to me and Chris. But it is not because He is unloving and uncaring God. I have to remind myself that God is there with His arms outstretched, wanting to hold my hand and take me through this difficult times. Oh, how I wish I could go around it, or that God could just put me in His hands and take me in His hands and lift me over it. But this is not how faith is built, and it is definitely not walking in faith!
I am excited about 2008. It will not end the way that it started. Chris and I will be married and I’ll have my PhD. I pray that God blesses us both with good jobs and a roof over our heads – so we can stop putting items into our ‘invisible house’. I always have great expectations of what the year will bring. I guess I do because of the God that I serve.
When I reflect on 2007, it was a year filled with its disappointments and excitements as with any other year. But what I have noticed is that I have changed. Even though I’m being buffeted by the waves of uncertainty, I have to hold on to the fact that God has a plan and a future for us and He’s not going to leave us to do this on our own.
HAPPY NEW YEAR! MAY GOD BLESS YOU AND KEEP YOU THROUGHOUT!
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